Unhappy.....
Disappointed....
Disgruntled.....
and sad
I miss my food. I miss blogging about my food and listening to people wanting to make my food.
I miss the connection of people enjoying something together and just being happy.
I have lost 12 lbs, and some of my old clothes fit. I bought a bikini.
I don't care....
I hate the food
I hate the bland
I hate that my family will not eat any of my food and they sit around reminiscing about my mashed potatoes.
I dread eating now. I rarely eat. Food has no appeal for me at all. None....
I never have anything to blog about. I think the food is ugly, I think the meals suck, and I wouldn't want anyone to eat what I made.....EVER!
This is a good plan.
This plan works.
This plan saves lives.
I do not know if I can do it.
I am being honest.
I hate this food.
If I continue this plan I am going to stop blogging.
I am not being melodramatic.
I am being honest.
I cannot show food I hate, to people I care about.
It does not taste good.
That I would not feed to my dog.....not that he would eat it....
I need a little support here in my hour of need.
I am seriously thinking about eating a cheeseburger, and I am not joking!
22 comments:
Brandi,
I hated it at the beginning too. Remember I told you I stomped around complaining that I couldn't live this way? Sounds like you are there. It really will get easier and your taste buds will change but it takes a while. Additionally you will learn to adapt your cooking to the plan.
Congratulations on the 12 pounds down. That is amazing!
If you need to talk call me. :-)
big hugs,
Ali
I'm so sorry to hear you aren't enjoying your new eating plan. I'm not really familiar with it, but I hope that Ali is right ... perhaps your tastebuds will change. Whether you stick with the diet or not, I hope you keep blogging! I'd miss your posts :(
you changed pretty abruptly, just give yourself some time. why dont you let us be the judge, whether or not your food is "ugly". which i am just about positive it isnt. Alicia is right, i dont miss sugar nearly as much as i thought i would. maybe because i know that i can have some with friends once in awhile if i want to. you will get to a point where the way you are eating is the only way you will want to. remember the last time you ate mostly raw? i think you said you had for awhile.did you have to get over this hump? you can do it!
I am so sorry you are struggling. I love ETL. Eating this way has actually made me wish that I had a blog because I love how great the food looks- simple, fresh, colorful and healthy. I can only say that I hope you give it a chance. Your taste and your idea of food will evolve. I also wonder what your motivation is. I know that if I was doing this for weight loss there is no way I could stick with it. I am on the same path as Ali and see this as a road to health and a HUGE weapon against cancer. That makes this food see like a miracle and not the least bit ugly. Take Care,
Jennifer
I have been dieting all my life especially after my brain surgery. After my surgery I gained 100 lbs. due to all the steroids I had to take. I was miserable and I made evryone else around miserable too.
Then I went on the Adkins diet...I lost 74 lbs in 6 months...but I gained it all back within a year. Now as a vegan I diet real good all week and then I eat anything I want on Sundays. This gives me a desire to keep the diet going and to also loose the weight, plus an incentive to look forward towards Sunday...YEAH!!!! Though I have never gone back to six 10, I am happy in a plus size, God loves me just the way I am and that's all that matters. I imagine you are just as beautiful on the outside as you are in the inside. Don't loose hope and try to be happy while loosing the pounds because no one can make you happy, only you. Good luck.
http://nuestracena-vegancuisine.blogspot.com
Oh Girl. How about doing the plan 85%? Have some cheats. It might be better than hating it. Then you can go back up to 100% when you feel like it.
I love your blog. Don't stop.
I'd eat that cheeseburger.
Find some local, organic meat.
Eating is such a big part of life. Constantly depriving yourself may not be the best thing to do... Treat yourself every now & then! :-)
Although I know why you're doing this (the PA), I agree in some way with all the posters here. Yes, your tastes will change, yes, you're going through a stage, and yes, you could just eat what you like for 1 day a week or once every 2 weeks - whatever works for you!!! I doubt your food is truly ugly - it's a significant change, and I admire you for giving it a shot. Please don't ever stop blogging though!!!!
I agree with Cadi on the the cheeseburger thing. Please don't stop blogging though. I love checking out your stuff. I would love for you to post some food stuff though. Just try it. I have been considering changing some of my food stuff and I really enjoy seeing what you say about it and your recipes.
Allow yourself a "cheat"....
What has helped me is my Vita-Mix - I love all the vegetable juice concoctions. You could drink several daily variations and it might save the whole plan!
It is really "ok" not to be perfect!
Good luck!
Teresa
PS 12 lbs.??
Bikini??!!
Wowowowowow!! Congratulations!
I'm sorry this is so difficult for you and you are so down. But please don't give up entirely, and PLEASE don't stop blogging. There are so many of us who care about you, Brandi.
hi vv,
i looked up this diet on the internet and if you are using it to improve your health problems then i say fight like hell to stay with it. look, life sucks sometimes and it sounds like that's where you are right now. but you have a family that loves you way more than they love food.
so i think it might be bootstrap time. judging by the way you write, you are one scrappy chick that doesn't give up. so don't.
~janet
Hi, Brandi! Wow, am I glad I checked in on your blog today! I know to a degree what you're going through. Remember I mentioned in our e-mails how I'm trying a vegan weight loss plan? Well, it's not the tastiest either, and the recipes are not what I'd be making on my own every day. I've been losing weight, but I miss my food, and so does my family. So, as far as my blogging goes, I'm going to make one of my dishes once a week and post that. The rest of the time, I'll be on the plan. That way, I stay on the right path, and I can blog, too. Don't stop bloggin' girl! If you want to talk, drop me a note thru e-mail.
Don't stop writing. I don't know you oersinally, but I follow your blog b/c I am interested in your story, your struggles, your wins and your ability to have come so far. KEEP GOING! Fnd a community of people on the same diet to help support you. As with any change, its always worse before it gets better. I am cheering for you and your health and you rhappiness!
also....check this out.....maybe take a raw cooking class!
http://kirstenintheraw.wordpress.com/
Please do not be discouraged. I know it is hard. I fluctuate between eating all raw, eating vegan, and every once in a while vegetarian. If I do eat cheese (which is the one thing keeping me from being a complete vegan) I make sure it is American Humane Certified. My husband and brother are both full on meat eater. I am from Guam and my husband is Hawaiian. We both grew up eating meat, meat, and more meat. He still eats meat, but he's slowly cutting back. He rarely ever eats red meat now, which for him is a huge deal! I always struggle to make food that my brother and husband will enjoy as well. If you want, maybe we can share recipes (the good ones ;). I love food, so I hate when I make something vegan and it turns out horrible. So I just keep working on it until it's great! Don't give up! I hope this was semi-encouraging. (Sorry for any spelling errors.)
Carissa
You don't know me & I am not a blogger but I am a big fan of your blog. After reading this post I was so concerned for you I just had to write. You are such an inspiration to me! I am reading E2L and it has changed my life. When ever you feel down just know that more people than you realize care about you and your health & are pulling for you! I hope you don't stop blogging!
Oh please please don't stop blogging. You have inspired me and lots of other people to look carefully at what we're eating. I fell off the wagon at the weekend because my family were complaining at the food I was making them. I was so ill by Monday!
So I started all over again. No sugar, no white flour products or white rice.
Remember why you are doing this. It's not selfish to take care of your health. Our families can eat what they like outside the home but at home we all eat the same!(At least that's the plan!)
I hope all these messages of support help you through this rough patch.
Ali x (all the way from Scotland)
VV,
You ain't no quitter! You gotta to continue, for your sake.
I have come so close to quitting some of my good habits and going back to my yucky habits, so many times. I had to fight myself and the urge to quit. Had I quit and gone back to my old ways, I may not even be alive today.
So, my friend, take it from a "Loser at Quitting", this too shall pass and you will be on top of things again.
Should you require more inspiration (that's what I call my balderdash), please do not hesitate to contact me or the boss lady!
Peace :)
Brandi, it seems no one wants you to stop blogging! And I don't blame them--You are definitely a bright spot in the blogging world, that's for sure! I want you to know I support you no matter what you choose! I'm sure you'll find inspiration again, my friend. Everything will work out! :)
Love you, Brandi!
I don't know if you eat cheese, but when I'm REALLY craving a burger...I order an In'N'Out grilled cheese. It is FABULOUS and it hits the bill!
I have actually been considering doing this diet in a couple of weeks. (your almost raw burritos kind of made me want to, heh.) I hope you stick with blogging even if you don't stick with the diet. I recommend easing into the diet and picking a meal a day that will abide by the diet and just try to eat healthier in your other meals. best of luck!
p.s. just say no to cheeseburgers. srsly.
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